At The Crossroads

Lo! When I stand here realising, that I am alone at a cross road,
Couldn’t finish a melody I started,
Somewhere half the way I missed a note,
I am done believing, in all, except myself,
Now I have got to find the road ahead, on my own.   

There is a song inside me, a wishful dream,
Everytime, I am hurt, I caved in,
But not this time, this time I want to stay strong,
They say, all you got to do is dream,
But I say this time this dream has to come true.

For, it is me being stubborn here,
That I will no longer take it, No! Not anymore,
One more time I try to bend for someone,
I am sure it will break me from inside,
Making me irreparable, beyond any recognition.   

Do I want that for me?, No I wouldn’t wish it for anyone,
Be it a friend, or be it a foe, no never I wish them this,
The things I had to go through, all the brunt I took,
Leaving a permanent scar in my memories and mind,
I struggled to cope up with my past even living in the present.

Life’s unfairness continued, but somehow I too thrived,
Wishing everything would change as if waking up from a dream,
None so faithful like the hurt and pain,
Followed me like a shadow, along with me,
I still smiled outside even though, I bleed inside.           Wish I knew how to sail across to the land,
Without the boat, without the oars, without any lifeguards,
I still struggle with the inside of myself,
But overcoming this, is the need of the hour,
As I stand alone at this life’s crossroads.