La Douleur

Pain becomes integral part of your life,
And then you realise there is no where to run,
No words comfort you and  everything hurts,
Looking beyond the pain itself becomes painful.

Sunrise comes so does the sunset,
All the while you realise that it hurts,
The world quick to judge, not witnessing
The bruises you have acquired all the while,

Years zoomed past by and so did life on this earth,
The fact that your days on this earth are counted,
Makes it more fearful, when I look back, I realise,
I wanted so much more, but I gained so less.

May be it could have been worse than what it is now,
I know I need to be more grateful than being grudgeful,
But I cry inside and outside, I scream out in my head,
Who will see the boiling thoughts in my mind.

Alas, the pain gets through me and it wins,
And I sulk and gets curled up into myself,
I slowly crouch inside my own self the cocoon I have,
Slowly suffering the hurt from the inside and the pain from outside.