A Tenacious Dream

With my eyes open I was having a pretty dream,
As real it might seem, but it was just a dream,
An illusion of having someone near to me,
Of someone who became dear to me.

It took sometime to know it was just a dream,
A dream I so desperately wished was true,
But that’s what the dream does to you,
Give an illusion of something so real yet it fades away.

Things are spinning in my head, that’s when I loose control,
I get scared every waking moment of my life,
Can’t sleep with the kind of spinning going on inside,
A dream so real has got me forget what life was before.

I am on my own, this I realised when I closed my eyes,
Wish you knew what it means to me to be available,
It gets tough and I don’t know how to handle,
When I know it was just a dream and I am on my own.

Anamika…